And here she is
Wisdom tells me Im nothing
Love tells me Im everything
Within the two, my life flows...
her journey
her love
her other voices
her and herself
Heartbeat of a Her
Thursday, May 15, 2008 not feeling it
10:03 am
If its sth you are very passionate about and that if it becomes a part of your life, and then one day, you found out that you didnt really do as well as you should, what would you feel?
crappy.
No other way to say it... the disappointment that you feel is beyond you. You ask, what now? What could you have done better?
Yesterday, I thought by the next day and over a large amount of junk food, I'd be feeling fine.. I thought wrong. I even had a nightmare about it.. and that heavy disappointment is choking me. I know I should consider other factors which may have resulted in what I faced yesterday but I simply cannot do it because I feel greatly responsible. It doesnt matter if there were other factors contributing to it, I just cannot accept it.
I feel so crappy and so low and so blue and so gloomy and so disappointed with myself. I have never ever, really never ever felt this disappointed with myself.
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