Heartbeat of a Her

And here she is
Wisdom tells me Im nothing
Love tells me Im everything
Within the two, my life flows...

her journey her love her other voices her and herself

Heartbeat of a Her

Tuesday, January 08, 2008 Tuesday

7:02 pm

I am unmistakably edgy. After weeks or rather months of non stop worrying about money issues, students intake and other unnerving matters, I think my mind has come to a point where it has reached an 'unhealthy mental state'. I woke up yesterday and told myself I need a day off so after making the necessary arrangements, I spent the rest of the day @ home. The whole point was to rest but somehow the fact that I was at home made me more anxious abt things. I couldnt even watch tv or do other leisurely stuff peacefully.

Before I left home, Imin wrote this for me.. hehe.... thank u SmartyPants!

I was only too glad that I had to teach in the evening. And I told myself that after the lesson, Im gonna walk ard to clear my head. Anyways, my lesson was with Fariz, my student whom I have been teaching for 3 years over now. Since we took a break during the holidays, he had so much to tell me that I think I spent more time chatting than teaching. And there was his mum and granny too who were laying out all kinds of food for me. They really made me feel at home. Maybe thats why I've been teaching there the longest. Hahaa...

After that I found myself at the library, thank goodness. There is just this feeling which I cant explain whenever Im there. Gives me solace and comfort. Funny isnt it? I mean some ppl will find it drowning to be around so many books. My legs then brought me to Popular Bookstore where I grabbed some stuff for some craft work,( which at this point of time I am not sure if it will turn out well or not ) for my sista. Lets just wait and see.

So that was it.. my Tuesday. At the end of it, I think I need some things to help me calm down and relax. Geee, too much worrying is driving me nuts.