On Monday, I was flung on an emotional roller coaster ride..

In the morning I received an email with regards to some work issues which troubled me like crazy as the only thing which I have been looking forward is a closure so that I can move on and focus on the current stuff which is already stacking up. I shall not go into the details of the email as I am feeling ok now and getting into it will only throw me into a fit of rage. Nonetheless, yesterday, I was thinking about it and it hit me that I shudnt be bothered by these issues as ppl decide how they want to live their lives and I simply cannot keep asking questions as “why and what are they thinking?”. I’ll go mad… Im tired of answering for other ppl’s shortcomings when they are not mine to begin with. Its not like Im appreciated.. Instead, at the end of the day, I feel like such a fool. Im done doing all that… Done. Sayonara.. Adios.. Nothing personal, just business.

In the afternoon, I received a call from one of the parents of the Tampines centre. It was Aini’s mum.. a student whom all of us are very close to… not just to her but also the rest of her family. What I heard from the mum left me in utter shock for the next few seconds.. She told me that Aini’s dad had passed away in a road accident on Saturday. He died instantly. On Sunday, they managed to safely complete the burial. I was so sad for her… She started to cry when she went into the details and I started to tear as well. ( But of course, I didn’t make it obvious to her ). They were such a happy family.. The parents were inviting Taufiq, Cristy n me over to their place for Hari Raya last week and now she told me that they will not be celebrating after all. I asked to speak to Aini and when she was on the phone, the usual zest and cheerfulness were non existent. She spoke slowly and I could sense that she’s still trying to grasp what is happening. For a nine year old, being the youngest and closest to her dad, I feel for her. Her exams are in 2 weeks time. I will not attempt to even say that I understand what she feels or what the whole family is going through. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul.. I really emphatize with them. Its barely a week til Raya and this happened. Well, everything happens for a reason.. Allah knows better.